Sorry by buckcherry


Oh I had a lot to say, was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back.
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

This time I think, I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
You get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

Every single day, I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah

Sorry
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry


{its never too late to make it right}







ok well luckily my post thing is back to normal again, except cant change font and post photos only, haha nvm better than before anw. maybe i should start typing words in full now, it could be better for me in various sense like maybe english composition i wont write any short forms lol, i should heed the advice to type in full.

got to stay back every single day for this week and next week as well, stupid VS, u suck! waste my bloody time stay back do mock exam -.- just conduct during normal class lessons also can right.. waste time sia..

okay today mock exam damn cute, i didnt know need provide our own paper till before i just enter the hall heard thiru say it, i went like :0 holy craps i didnt have any foolscap paper in my bag at all, luckily wx lent me 3 pieces, otherwise i would have really just go sit there without any paper at all and stone. even though i didnt have enough paper to do part (d) for ss but nvm its all right.. at least better than i score a damn 'KOSONG' right..

walking in the rain is real nice, i dont know how long i took to walk but it was really a picturesque(not sure if i used the word correctly) moment. haha you should all go try it someday, it rocks man!







its really hard yknow, caught in between, i dont really know which side to choose now, its a matter of following my heart or my head. some people say to just be patient, some people say to just give it up. haix which to follow when the amount of advice given is the same? right now i will say im gonna use my heart and not my head. maybe some might call me dumb, but sorry thats the road that i picked.. all i ask for is just everything to be kept within, its like a contagious substance that when spread will continue on. i hope everything will go back to when it was before, i can only pray for god to show me the way. its really funny how things in this world turn out to be when you least expect it.

changed my blog song to 'why' by Secondhand Serenade

*because these days arent easy
like they have been once before*







bet kai yi must be feeling real sad and down now, after all how would you expect to feel after you lost your psp man. haix i really feel sad for him, its also not his fault he lost his psp, i think the guy who stole it really sucks man, doubt he even spared a thought for kai yi at all. well i can only pray that he will find it soon. it really is such a screwed feeling to know that there could be a possibility of somebody in your class being a thief, scary isnt it.. but i dont think mr maran should have used the words 'i curse you' that is really extreme and from my point of view it really has gone to far. yes that guy is at fault but whatever it is, there is no point of saying you curse that guy, its really not right to do something like that. after all i believe that everyone has a good and kind side of him, even if he does wrong i believe that one day he will realise his own mistakes and turn over a new leaf for his own good.

anw i was just feeling bored so flipped through my old email messages, found some really nice ones that i thought i would like to share with all of you. even though maybe some of you have seen it before, but i think it would be pretty nice to have a look at them again, and see how useful the advice inside can be to you or you could just read for your personal enjoynment. As to those reading for the first time, take a few mins to absorb whatever is written, some things may not apply to you but theres no harm in knowing a little more.

21 things to look at in your life:
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly. < SPAN>

THIRTEEN! ...... When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY- ONE. Spend some time alone.







honestly i dunno why, probably ive been overloaded by too much emotions from things everywhere.i couldnt take it anymore last night, i broke down... i cant remember the last time i felt so bad in my life, it was as if every single thing faded away from me. i can only blame myself. it felt as if everything was just gone, and the linging sense of emptiness seemed to stay, even when i thought i would feel better after a night's sleep, it didnt. i dunno how long im gonna stay like this... its not something that i like, i really dunno y. sometimes i think its just best to keep it to myself, at least its better than saying it out. i know i just screwed up a part of my life, i really hope everything will return back to the way it was, back to the times when i really liked it that way. i can only hope and pray, that everything will be ok. T_T

im the only one to blame










haix, my comp is dam screwed, cant even post properly, i use to see a big white box but now its a dam small box at the bottom!! shit! well what to do T_T.

anw today im really sorry to those people who wanted to look at the paper after school. firstly i dun think its rite cause otw i will get my fren into trouble so no way. secondly i was gonna go somewher so yeah. anw show u all in class le wad... for some ppl la.

haix i didnt really have a good day today, well i guess what people say of me being a failure and a flop is so right. i so dam cant do things right, maybe i just gotta have more courage. i really need it, gotta put my face aside. i cant always just be hiding, i cant always just be waiting, if everyone waits then whos gonna start.

plus had a pretty alrite time at ryan's hse. well i freakin read stuff wrongly so was like 20min later than i was suppose to be. well he really got shocked when he saw us and all. skip that part. then halfway i got that musclular cramping in my heart area again, oh shit, really darn scared now la, dunno isit overexert myself or wad. somemore this time it wasnt a short few second type, it lasted for like 3mins la. and i can tell you thats not normal. craps.. okay the total mess up of his hair was awesome. got starch mayonise maple syrup chilli n i think no more le. eew thats sick. luckily for me i was pretty dry and clean. well luckily, otw i would have really been darn freakin dead when i got home.

and i noe there are people who come read this blog secretly, dun go hide behind your screens huh. make yourself known. all u bad people, whole day disturb me and force stuff outta me *hmph*.. haha n i noe im a failure.. haix

anw time to go do ans for geog, heehee








today was vs 133rd speech day, had to report to school so early.and when i was there, tried to play cards wif frens but it didnt help wif so many teachers walking bout.okay fast-forward to in hall,anw i just discovered the school reception is really sucky.the speech by loh was really long and the chicken guy's 1 was also a waste of time...haha got so many people went on stage to take the prizes,real bored..anw the indian n malay dance was darn funny la, no offence to the people though n im not being racist but i just found the performances vry laughable la haha :)

wells overall i found it a waste of time as usual,but this is my last year there so no more anymore lalala~~







honestly, i dun regret ever doing anything that i have done so far for the past few days. u keep saying sorry to me, but please dont. i did everything out of my own will and accord, even if i want to blame anyone, its myself. I do things because i think they are worthwhile, cause they deserve me spending my time and effort to do that. loving a person dosent mean you have to own him/her, rather seeing him/her in bliss and happiness is the greatest form of love. i really appreciate the truthfullness, that u dont hide anything... i would say i rather noe the truth no matter what, even if it hurts me so deep. when i say/do anything i mean it... trust me. even if it means i have to do with less time for sleep and everything else, its worth it all.

(:







im starting to feel the headaches coming back to me now,shucks... its a sign that i obviously didnt get enuf sleep haix... 4h + pe = me wanting to sleep now and pon tuition. haha, nvm its all rite i will try to sleep early tonite, hopefully i am tired enuf to do so, otw im gonna sleep in lesson tmr which is real bad.. sometimes its true that sleeping is a waste of time, but its like a dam nice luxury at other times too.

my motivation to study is you.
your constant nagging is my driving force.








i think i need to go for a course that trains my tolerance level man, its seriously getting out of control, one of these days im gonna say something i shouldnt say. omg, bad bad. i need to find a method of venting out my fustration, otherwise its gonna get bad. uhuh.... i hate it when i temporarily or permanently feel biased against someone or feel like scolding him, i think thats really bad. maybe i should get something to whack, like a punching bag, but na not ideal. nvm im gonna find my way out of it, so if i pissed any of u off these few days, im really sorry. give me time to get back to normal.







things were never to be done the easy way, if it was just so simple, the whole world would have done it by now. i made a promise to myself for your sake, im gonna stick by it and never sway. hoho y must there be restrictions, its killing me. but im gonna hang on, even if its 1 day, 1 week, 1 month, 1 year, 1 decade, 1 lifetime. im never letting go. JYJYJY!!! :P







wl i cant stand the wait, week after week. its such an irritating feeling.. when the day passes during the week, you have to wait 1 more. dam sian sia, then also not say you get the chance everytime, even once will be dam good for me le. but there are so many outside distractions that screw things up. or isit helping? i dunno wad the reaction will be if i cant control my mouth from saying it anymore...







the distance is killing me, so is the silence. o.0. anw was watching mtv juz now and saw them showing songs from 'the script' that was not bad but havent heard before much. so here goes

Talk You Down
The Script

I can feel the colour running
As it's fading from my face
Try to speak but nothings coming
Nothing I could say to make you stay
Grabbed your suitcase called a taxi
It's 3am now where you gonna go?
Gonna stay with friends in London
And that's all I get to know

Just a cigarette gone
No you couldn't' be that far
So I'm driving in my car where I hope you are
Maybe I can talk you down
Maybe I can talk you down

We're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head
and try to open up your eyes
This is relationship suicide

Cos if you go, I go...

Taking shortcuts through the alleys
While your racing through my mind
Cops can chase but they wont catch me
Not before I get to speak my mind
If there's still time

Just a cigarette gone
No you couldn't be that far
So I'm driving in my car where I hope you are
Maybe I can talk you down
Maybe I can talk you down

We're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head
and try to open up your eyes
This is Relationship suicide

Cos if you go, I go...
Cos if you go, I go...
Cos if you go, I go...
Cos if you go, I go...

We're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head

Just a cigarette gone
No you couldn't be that far
So I'm driving in my car where I hope you are
Maybe I can talk you down
Maybe I can turn around

We're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head
and try to open up your eyes
This is Relationship suicide

so the blog song's gonna change to this too o.0 enjoy







last week i borrowed this really nice book from eng teacher. well its like a book, kinda thick, and consists of many articles, well it seems pretty chim for even an adult, but its labeled as student reading material. well okay i'll extract some parts from it, really nice parts, and trust me they are seriously true. Ok i will only share on 1 article, its probably the best 1.

title:Talk in the intimate relationship: His and Hers

Everyone knows that as a relationship becomes long term,its terms change. But women and men often differ in how they expect them to change. Many women feel: 'after all this time, you should know what i want without me telling you'. many men feel:' after all this time, we should be able to tell each other what we want'. (SO TRUE)

If you want to be understood without saying what you mean explicitly in words, you must convey meaning in an indirect manner, as metamessages. Women are more likely to be indirect and try to reach agreement by negotiation. When they think they're being nice, women often end up appearing deferential and unsure of themselves or of what they want.

example: Harriet complains to morton, 'why dont u ask me how my day was?' He replies, 'if you have something to tell me, tell me. y do u have to be invited?' the reason is that she wants the metamessage of interest: evidence that he cares how her day was, regardless of whether or not she was something to tell.

Women want their partners to be a new and improved version of a best friend. This gives them a soft spot for men who tell them secrets. As jack nicholson once advised a guy in a movie: 'tell her about your troubled childhood - that always gets them' (0.o does it work?)

the author is female and seems to be bias against herself sia, weirdo...

this can be applied in everyday life, seriously. lol n im starting to get pissed off by my baby cousin... zzz i must control, cant imagine shouting at a baby man...







the past 2 weeks have been awesome for the world of tennis, the wimbeldon has met its expectations by producing an awesome final ytd night. Fed was the favourite goin into the match, morever the last few times that he played roddick, he won them all and dropping only 1 set in the 2005 wimbeldon final. But roddick has definetely stepped up his game this year, it has been absolutely phenomenal for him. Try losing 14 pounds in half a year, try learning to improve on your ground strokes in half a year. he has done it all, in the past whenever his serve was returned by fed, it would surely mean roddick lost the point but nowadays there is still a 50-50 chance. But you've gotta admit, both players played out an outstanding final, and roger federer deservingly won the wimbeldon and created history. What a great athlete fed is, winning 15 grand slams, beating pete sampras's record and creating history. Somehow no one could seem to snatch that awesome date with destiny away from him. Fed beat roddick 5-7, 7-6, 7-6, 3-6, 15-13. It was an epic match to watch, without a doubt.

I slept at 2 last nite, but it was all worth it. Anw i think i need to hide my phone away somewhere for some days in a month, otherwise i will go mad like mentally having a phone but cant use or i will get freakin owned by my parents. i wouldnt choose the latter. It is like 230 sms in 3 days. ITS NUTS MAN. But what to do :) so if i do that everyday, it would be 2300 sms a month, no way, im gonna stop man, gotta control myself even though i noe its really hard T_T. Sometimes it is better to just not assume and also not askin and findin out is better. sometimes the truth could be nice to hear, or it could really hurt. But this is like im in dreamland. 0.o hopeless tendencies







yknow that type of experience is totally out of this world, i never expected it to be so sustainable, but i love it. in bio, the lock and key hypothesis is very similar to us all. every enzyme and substrate is specific right down to the very last minute detail, 1 enzyme can onli fit to 1 substrate, none other. they are just this excellent, perfect match that go together like no other. everybody is the same, yes you may click with this guy for like half of urself, but u know there lies this other section wher it just dosent go together. while on the other hand there are some that just completely dosent fir your personality no matter how u put it. you can spend hours trying to twist and turn the situation to fit yourself, but eventually facts are facts they cant be changed, what dosent go well together just isnt meant to be at all.

on the other hand there are is only one out there that will click with you right down to the very extreme detail. it almost seems like its impossible to find, but if you actually learn to put your past down and look to the future, it will inevitably find you. seriously, but each person takes a different period of time to look for somebody his replica in the other. when it seems like you have struck the jackpot, it was probably just another process along the way.

so i think that it is absolutely phenomenal, zomg. certain limitations have been placed upon us, but slowly with time, everything will get better and probably eventually fade with time. to have even found that needle in the haystack, i wont let it go, no giving up, just a matter of playing a 'waiting game' with time. We know the desire to continue is just so burning but yet the mind imposes an obstruction. it will work out in the end, dont fret, god has a plan for all of us

*hearts* {Absence makes the heart grow fonder} *hearts* (17/7, we're excited :P)









week 1 of the school term has came to a close today, guess im just not used going back to school all of a sudden. On the back of the june holiday break, its tough to accept the reality that you are back in this place called school again. looking at the lessons that have passed this week, guess the teachers have probably changed a little, in the sense that they are now more strict in collecting all their hw and stuff, all in a bid for us to do well in our o levels. im gonna take this weekend to truly adapt back to school life of sleeping earlier and such. otw im gonna be sleeping in class soon.

things seemed to start off totally bad for me today, not getting it and having my expectation set too high. yet when the worst possible seemed to come, everything nice seemed to click in a flawless manner into place. The saying of 'there is a silver lining in every cloud' and 'the good things always come after the bad' couldnt have been illustrated any better than after today. man i would say that the good things completely outweighed all the possible bad stuff that i had suffered. Good things always seem to have a way of getting to us at a moment which we are caught completely unaware. Sometimes not talking does not mean that people do not bother or care about another person, instead it is a way of giving personal space off and collaborating about the next possible step. To bask in that presence is sometimes superbly awesome such that silence is often the most ideal manner to enjoy that moment to the fullest. how i wish i knew everything that was going on and then i would not have to dwell on thoughts any further. how wonderful would it be if everything was made clear and upfront. yet it is such a human nature that forbids us to do that, we are all shy and rather maintain in that area of ours rather then step out and encounter the unknown.

Beacuse {If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you are always in the same place'} How i wish those seemingly hopeless tendencies of mine can actually be reality, maybe this is the one and only one that i could possible stick so true to. :P







3rd day of school today, and i had my 1st bio lesson of the term. lets say it wasnt any better than the rest that i had the entire range of lessons ever since sec3. maybe it shouldnt have been called a lesson, probably a 'learn how to give out stuff' session. She had like 6 notes to give us, and they werent really notes, just each about 5-6 pages all filled with long long pages of words which i didnt even bother looking at. Biology is hopeless for our class, most likely due to the teacher as well without a doubt. some of the worksheets did not have enough copies while some had just more than enough, pro rite... well wad can i say. the entire time was spent listening something coming in from one year and out the other. she says we are not interested in the subject. but with my bio my best sci coming in from sec2, now its the worst, anything that she can say bout my interest? it has probably declined with time, now it has hit the rock bottom, wont go any higher than that. seriously i wonder why the 3rd best class in the level is handed with such teachers man, SIAN!

the week seems to be passing by quite fast too, although i still sense the long-ness of it. soon its gonna be the weekends once more, hurry come. anw next mon is youth day so theres no sku for us, yipee. great job moe, make more holidays like this.

obstacles lay ahead, acting as challenges to overcome rather than obstacles to stumble us
sometimes i wish i could read another person's mind no matter wher they were